[ oh. there it is again. that stupid distance, the feeling that he and suguru are standing on either side of a gap that keeps widening inch by inch.
there's a part of him, some kneejerk instinct, that wants to pull away from it so he doesn't have to look at it more closely than this. (because satoru was supposed to be one half of the strongest, because he told suguru to go on ahead and let him handle the sorcerer killer, and --)
but the larger part of him is just desperate not to lose this, and that's what makes him start shaking his head before suguru even finishes speaking. ] Don't --
[ stumbling over it, chewing on the inside of his cheek. ] ... we don't have to talk or anything. You can go back to sleep, if you want. I just --
[ the words stick to the back of his throat again; he doesn't know how to put any of this into words. ]
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there's a part of him, some kneejerk instinct, that wants to pull away from it so he doesn't have to look at it more closely than this. (because satoru was supposed to be one half of the strongest, because he told suguru to go on ahead and let him handle the sorcerer killer, and --)
but the larger part of him is just desperate not to lose this, and that's what makes him start shaking his head before suguru even finishes speaking. ] Don't --
[ stumbling over it, chewing on the inside of his cheek. ] ... we don't have to talk or anything. You can go back to sleep, if you want. I just --
[ the words stick to the back of his throat again; he doesn't know how to put any of this into words. ]