[ Satoru pulls him possessively close, tucking his head into the crook of Suguru's neck. ]
Megumi's being a brat, Yuji gave me a speedrun summary of all the horrible things that happen back home that I didn't know about yet, and a secret third thing that I'll tell you about on Sunday.
I asked for it. I told him I could feel you all tiptoeing around things unsaid, and that I wanted to hear everything that was making you all squirm over me not knowing it.
He was squirming worst. Yuji's no good with secrets. The rest of you would have just let it eat at you in silence.
[ Satoru clings tight to him, letting himself need for once. Letting himself be vulnerable and accept comfort. ]
( He bites back the rest of the complaint, a hand coming up to curve around the nape of Satoru's neck. )
He said you were happy. ( It sounds like mild boyish complaint, a little uneven and unsure of itself. ) And I know it was wearing on him but we spoke about it. If he'd have said he wanted to tell you then I would have helped.
( But this is what the children do. They shove people blindly into revelations they might not be ready for. Yuji is the worst offender. )
I am happy. [ Easy and certain, without hesitation. He lifts his head at that, lets Suguru see the truth of it in his eyes. ] I need to process some of it, and grieve, probably. But it's all ...
[ He shrugs, then tucks his head down again with a weary sigh. ] Theoretical. Things that happened to someone else a very long time ago. How am I supposed to grieve Nanami dying when he's a grumpy teenager who glowers at me when we pass in the hall?
I don't carry the trauma of those things, but the boys do.
Maybe once I process some of the new information I'll have some understanding of why Megumi's being such a fucking brat. [ He makes a frustrated noise and bristles like an angry cat. ]
( Privately he thinks the brattiness is a step up from actively suicidal but that's their secret. )
I suppose there's not been much time for actual teenage melodrama, They're safe here, Satoru. The kaiju exist but the boys are part of a wider team, they don't have to shoulder the burden all alone. This is just --.
( A hum. )
It's normal. Extraordinary for sorcerers, but par for the course elsewhere. Teenagers are mean.
[ Satoru's quiet for a moment, then makes a thoughtful noise. He hadn't thought about it like that.
Megumi's tantrum has him furious, but he doubts that Megumi will manage to do anything really serious about it. Satoru's already decided what he's doing and he feels like the grace periods he gave Megumi (and Hikaru) are both fair.
A little of the tension seeps out of him and he sighs, nuzzling at Suguru. ] Fine.
( He slips a hand underneath Satoru's hem, splays fingers against his spine. )
You've only ever had to make sure they survive. You didn't have time for anything else. Even Gojo Satoru should be allowed a few missteps in that situation, and anyone who says otherwise can talk to me about it.
( Fingers drift over the notches in a spine. )
Is this falling out why he told me to avoid cannibalism?
I promised a three day grace period. [ The secret third thing he'll talk about on Sunday. ]
In case you flip your shit and get hungry, after you find out. [ His lips curve against Suguru's skin. Like, sure, they are all legitimately concerned about that possibility, and yet he can't help but tease. ]
Mm, good. Thank you. [ Another soft kiss and a more contented snuggle against him.
He sighs, letting his mind fall quiet, letting himself accept comfort. He expects his brain will start processing some of the new revelations soon enough, but for now he can just push that all to the back of his mind and not worry about it. ]
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( Don't worry, boo. He's on his way. )
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He's curled up in the bed already, one blue eye opening to gleam grumpily when Suguru appears. Satoru reaches out a demanding arm to summon him. ]
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Bad day?
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Megumi's being a brat, Yuji gave me a speedrun summary of all the horrible things that happen back home that I didn't know about yet, and a secret third thing that I'll tell you about on Sunday.
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Yuji told me he wasn't going to do that. ( Didn't they agree on it? These children. ) Do you want to talk about it?
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He was squirming worst. Yuji's no good with secrets. The rest of you would have just let it eat at you in silence.
[ Satoru clings tight to him, letting himself need for once. Letting himself be vulnerable and accept comfort. ]
He did right. Tore the bandage off fast.
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( He bites back the rest of the complaint, a hand coming up to curve around the nape of Satoru's neck. )
He said you were happy. ( It sounds like mild boyish complaint, a little uneven and unsure of itself. ) And I know it was wearing on him but we spoke about it. If he'd have said he wanted to tell you then I would have helped.
( But this is what the children do. They shove people blindly into revelations they might not be ready for. Yuji is the worst offender. )
Are you okay?
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[ He shrugs, then tucks his head down again with a weary sigh. ] Theoretical. Things that happened to someone else a very long time ago. How am I supposed to grieve Nanami dying when he's a grumpy teenager who glowers at me when we pass in the hall?
I don't carry the trauma of those things, but the boys do.
Maybe once I process some of the new information I'll have some understanding of why Megumi's being such a fucking brat. [ He makes a frustrated noise and bristles like an angry cat. ]
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I suppose there's not been much time for actual teenage melodrama, They're safe here, Satoru. The kaiju exist but the boys are part of a wider team, they don't have to shoulder the burden all alone. This is just --.
( A hum. )
It's normal. Extraordinary for sorcerers, but par for the course elsewhere. Teenagers are mean.
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Megumi's tantrum has him furious, but he doubts that Megumi will manage to do anything really serious about it. Satoru's already decided what he's doing and he feels like the grace periods he gave Megumi (and Hikaru) are both fair.
A little of the tension seeps out of him and he sighs, nuzzling at Suguru. ] Fine.
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( He slips a hand underneath Satoru's hem, splays fingers against his spine. )
You've only ever had to make sure they survive. You didn't have time for anything else. Even Gojo Satoru should be allowed a few missteps in that situation, and anyone who says otherwise can talk to me about it.
( Fingers drift over the notches in a spine. )
Is this falling out why he told me to avoid cannibalism?
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[ He makes a soft noise at the caress, soothed. This petting is what he needed. Then he snorts at Suguru's question. ] Please. It's not cannibalism.
But that's probably not unrelated, yeah.
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( Gentle curiosity alone. )
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In case you flip your shit and get hungry, after you find out. [ His lips curve against Suguru's skin. Like, sure, they are all legitimately concerned about that possibility, and yet he can't help but tease. ]
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( He can guess. Megumi mentioned his technique. )
Choso's still wandering around fucking questionable men, anyway. So I have standards now.
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I just want to fucking kill him.
... Again.
Anyway, that's good. I don't think you'll break your diet, but. There's always that chance.
[ Satoru's not even sure Megumi knows everything Hikaru told him. Satoru's still disturbed by the details, which threw him for a nasty loop. ]
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( He hums. )
I'm not looking for more power. Aiy, you're a suspicious lot.
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That's not why.
[ He doesn't want to twenty questions this situation, but he's also ... maybe Yuji's not the only one who's bad at secrets. ]
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You can tell me Sunday, Unlike most people here I'm fine leaving things be.
( Yuji. )
🎀
He sighs, letting his mind fall quiet, letting himself accept comfort. He expects his brain will start processing some of the new revelations soon enough, but for now he can just push that all to the back of his mind and not worry about it. ]