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SOBA

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CHARACTER NAME

Geto Suguru

CIVILIAN NAME

Zaru Soba

TEAM

Brimstone

HOUSING NUMBER

003

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[shadowban]

you're worried he might accidentally kill me.

[ that doesn't sound so bad. which, megumi understands, is extremely selfish. ]

if it's his nature, then i can't hold it against him.

[gorb]

I would prefer you did, actually.

For one it goes against the pact. Unsafe behaviour.

[shadowban]

that pact's between us, not me and him. he's not bound by the same rules.

[ echoes of getting lawyered to hell and back by gojo satoru's teaching method. lo and behold. ]

and wouldn't it be bad for him too? he's already

he's not human. not the way we're human. it doesn't make him evil or wrong. if we're judging people for the harm they can do, then what about yuji? what about me? what about all of the harm we've done, that we didn't choose to do?

[gorb]

Did I say any of that?

Yes, I'm more concerned about you. That won't change. But imagine if Hikaru-san harmed you, do you think he'd take it well?

All I'm saying is you should talk about it. Be careful. If you're grown enough to be thinking about sex you're grown enough to be thinking about not psychologically obliterating your partner.

[shadowban]

[ oh. that's— ]

extremely vivid and wildly specific.

[ in hindsight, that's probably what happened between him and gojo-sensei, now that megumi's taking a minute to gnaw on the thought. the signs were all there; he just needed the context. ]

sorry.

maybe it's a sign i'm not ready.

[gorb]

It's fine. I know you know my feelings on the matter, but when we talk I'm only trying to help you see some things you might not have considered. I'm not entirely against it, or the boy in general. It's just I would be cautious.

You can talk about it though. It would be good for you to know. And you can still go slowly. Hikaru-san might not have navigated these waters either.

[shadowban]

cautious is good. sometimes it's all we can do, and that's more than enough.

i'm pretty sure neither of us will have, too. did you know he has someone like me back home? not— not someone he's kissing, or i guess he wants to but they never got to it, or maybe it's more like me and yuji where it doesn't matter what form their friendship takes... i don't know. he misses him too. i don't want him to think that i'm trying to replace his friend.

fighting is a lot easier to figure out.

[gorb]

It is.

But you like him. And you're on the right track. I think it's good that you're trying to ask yourself these questions. Don't worry so much about what awaits either of you back home, you're here now. You should be allowed to live the life you have.

[shadowban]

[ live the life that they have — what kind of life is it, really? it could be the best thing ever, but there's a world that he's still tethered to, a home that may be waiting for him.

but he doesn't have anyone there, does he? yuji's here. hikaru's here. sensei and geto-san and nanami-san are here, and maybe one day tsumiki will be, too. this place offers him hope. it's scary. ]

can't you come home with us instead?

[gorb]

Ah.

I think it would kill me to be in the place where I failed. As much as Neo Tokyo is familiar it is a space away from home. And the one I built is not there any more.

[shadowban]

if you're staying, he's also staying.

if yuji's staying, then i have no reason to go back. we could just stay.

[gorb]

We could.

There's nothing stopping us. I think we've given enough.

[shadowban]

then we stay. i think we could, if we wanted. we could stay and make something new.

[gorb]

We'll need a house.

I'm expecting you and I to work together on that. If we want it to feel sensible.

[shadowban]

a house for us, with different wings so the rest of us can't hear you two.

[gorb]

( Hey now. )

Unfortunately the Gojo-fortune is beyond us. But a house where we all attempt to be considerate sounds fine.

[shadowban]

...can you imagine gojo-sensei being a sugar baby. he'd be so annoying.

[gorb]

Hahah.

When he was a teenager he'd make me pay for all of his sweets.

[shadowban]

he used to use me as an excuse to get the worst desserts ever to exist.

i get my coffee the way i want in exchange, though. i guess that was okay.

[gorb]

Sometimes I think if he'd have met my girls there would have been no stopping them. We'd have been travelling the world for the latest confectionary. You and I would have had to soothe sore stomachs after.

[shadowban]

it'll be worse. carnivals, beach trips, lots of tours at all the places and trying out as many shops as you can fit into a day.

my shadow domain ends up as a pocket luggage carrier for all the stuff they'll get. no one uses their indoor voice.

[gorb]

( It sounds perfect. )

I do like shopping but in small doses and with intent. But I would have utilised the bird too. Though that wouldn't help much considering how much their combined forces could have spent.

[shadowban]

the gojo might actually give him a spend limit for once.

did i tell you the time i tried to buy a whale? he just laughed. cancelled the donation to the tokyo sea life park, but laughed like an idiot first.

[gorb]

Why a whale?

[shadowban]

...i thought it was cool that they were so huge.

thought they'll fit in the shadows.