Ah, I don't really care about your father's tribulations. No matter what he had children, he should have been there for them. But all I need is for you to allow yourself a little grace. This is new.
Hang on, hang on, he needs to chain smoke ten cigarettes. )
Well then be filial and listen to me. It's going to get better. You're trespassing new ground. You're feeling new things. I think this is more progress than you realise.
Throwing a tantrum isn't going to have any permanent adverse effects, so I think it's fine. Just don't be too upset with Satoru either, all right? It's the first time he's not had to run at one hundred percent either. you're both learning.
it's weird, seeing him this handicapped. i know he's not always been this terrifying, but he's always
[ ——been untouchable, in his mind. until he wasn't. ]
i'm relieved to not be as strong as i was back home. but i know he isn't. he's never been in a situation like this, has he? toji-san hurt him, but that was a singular exception.
Satoru is strong in many ways. Just because LILITH has had her influence doesn't mean he's incapable. But it would be better if we tried to keep him from burning out. I think he might forget that he isn't quite as impervious as he used to be.
And he was exhausted when your father hit. That's how he managed it.
he's an absolute bitch to fight. threw a whole truck at my head.
[ it's nice to have someone who understands that toji-san is a massive jerk. ]
i've never seen sensei exhausted before, you know. he always kept that out of sight. well, except for ieiri-san. she complains about him not sleeping right.
( There's a story there, as far as he knows Toji died. Unless it's like Kenjaku? Do any of them stay dead? )
I think there was a point where he decided he just simply didn't feel it. If I had been a better friend I would have noticed. Maybe I could have intervened, but -.
maybe sometime in the future. he's being a little belligerent and it's getting on my nerves.
[ explaining shibuya is difficult for megumi, because he was both catalyst for the worst parts of it, and also essentially dead soon after fighting toji. his surprise when he woke up alive is something he hasn't fully processed even now. ]
but everyone deals with their own issues too. you had your own troubles at the time.
[ doesn't take much to figure as much, respectfully. ]
does this mean you and sensei are also talking more now?
We're both trying, which means something. ( They would just both rather die than address the elephant in the room, and quite literally. ) It's better than it was.
That sounds strange to think. They were fine before. We were friends. But we're different now. He seems to want to try, and I can't let him do that all alone, can I?
Do you think it's better for him? Have you noticed? You've spent more time with him now than I ever have, so maybe I'm wrong.
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he left when i was two, maybe three. my sister remembered him better. she budgeted the money we'd get monthly.
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Ah, I don't really care about your father's tribulations. No matter what he had children, he should have been there for them. But all I need is for you to allow yourself a little grace. This is new.
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that's weird too. kids shouldn't think like that about their parents.
you're more of a parent to me now, geto-san.
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Hang on, hang on, he needs to chain smoke ten cigarettes. )
Well then be filial and listen to me. It's going to get better. You're trespassing new ground. You're feeling new things. I think this is more progress than you realise.
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that i'm acting up and out instead of constantly engineering situations that could capably wipe me off the planet?
this is cheaper than therapy too, you're right.
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Throwing a tantrum isn't going to have any permanent adverse effects, so I think it's fine. Just don't be too upset with Satoru either, all right? It's the first time he's not had to run at one hundred percent either. you're both learning.
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it's weird, seeing him this handicapped. i know he's not always been this terrifying, but he's always
[ ——been untouchable, in his mind. until he wasn't. ]
i'm relieved to not be as strong as i was back home. but i know he isn't. he's never been in a situation like this, has he? toji-san hurt him, but that was a singular exception.
[ hurt you, too. ]
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Satoru is strong in many ways. Just because LILITH has had her influence doesn't mean he's incapable. But it would be better if we tried to keep him from burning out. I think he might forget that he isn't quite as impervious as he used to be.
And he was exhausted when your father hit. That's how he managed it.
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[ it's nice to have someone who understands that toji-san is a massive jerk. ]
i've never seen sensei exhausted before, you know. he always kept that out of sight. well, except for ieiri-san. she complains about him not sleeping right.
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( There's a story there, as far as he knows Toji died. Unless it's like Kenjaku? Do any of them stay dead? )
I think there was a point where he decided he just simply didn't feel it. If I had been a better friend I would have noticed. Maybe I could have intervened, but -.
( He'd been in a similarly bad shape. )
I won't let it happen again.
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[ explaining shibuya is difficult for megumi, because he was both catalyst for the worst parts of it, and also essentially dead soon after fighting toji. his surprise when he woke up alive is something he hasn't fully processed even now. ]
but everyone deals with their own issues too. you had your own troubles at the time.
[ doesn't take much to figure as much, respectfully. ]
does this mean you and sensei are also talking more now?
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We're both trying, which means something. ( They would just both rather die than address the elephant in the room, and quite literally. ) It's better than it was.
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i'm glad things are getting better for both of you. it's nice to see you both happy.
it's disgusting, but it's also nice.
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Haha.
Believe me I would rather we weren't too sappy around anyone else. But sometimes we can't help it.
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i never really asked, he doesn't talk about before. sometimes he gets weird when we're on campus.
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That sounds strange to think. They were fine before. We were friends. But we're different now. He seems to want to try, and I can't let him do that all alone, can I?
Do you think it's better for him? Have you noticed? You've spent more time with him now than I ever have, so maybe I'm wrong.