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SOBA

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CHARACTER NAME

Geto Suguru

CIVILIAN NAME

Zaru Soba

TEAM

Brimstone

HOUSING NUMBER

003

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Comments

[shadowban]

maybe sometime in the future. he's being a little belligerent and it's getting on my nerves.

[ explaining shibuya is difficult for megumi, because he was both catalyst for the worst parts of it, and also essentially dead soon after fighting toji. his surprise when he woke up alive is something he hasn't fully processed even now. ]

but everyone deals with their own issues too. you had your own troubles at the time.

[ doesn't take much to figure as much, respectfully. ]

does this mean you and sensei are also talking more now?

[gorb]

A little.

We're both trying, which means something. ( They would just both rather die than address the elephant in the room, and quite literally. ) It's better than it was.

[shadowban]

[ seeing as megumi can summon an actual elephant—— ]

i'm glad things are getting better for both of you. it's nice to see you both happy.

it's disgusting, but it's also nice.

[gorb]

( Do that next time a situation is tense, Megumi. )

Haha.

Believe me I would rather we weren't too sappy around anyone else. But sometimes we can't help it.

[shadowban]

are you two making up for lost time? it's heartwarming to think about.

i never really asked, he doesn't talk about before. sometimes he gets weird when we're on campus.

[gorb]

Things are nice.

That sounds strange to think. They were fine before. We were friends. But we're different now. He seems to want to try, and I can't let him do that all alone, can I?

Do you think it's better for him? Have you noticed? You've spent more time with him now than I ever have, so maybe I'm wrong.

[shadowban]

he always seemed

[ lonely. ]

like he believed he needed to be everything for everyone. even when i was under his care, we didn't live together. too dangerous for me and my sister, and i think he didn't want to disappoint us the way all the adults in our lives had at that point.

no one really talked about you, either. not even nanami-san, or ieiri-san.

so if he's trying now, and with you? if anyone can make it work, you both could. you're two stubborn assholes too smart for the world.

[gorb]

( No one mentioned him.

He wonders if that is better or worse. )

Thank you, I think? But I'll be careful now. I don't want to hurt anyone any more than I have. I've missed him for far too long to upset things again, and besides I'm very scared of his students.

( Maybe. )

Things will be fine.

[shadowban]

geto-san. when you really think about it, the worst that you can do now is hurt our feelings. you'll be fine. please look out for yourself, too.

remember, we're not allowed to kill ourselves. we promised.

[ it's too fine a point, too blunt, but megumi hopes it gets his point across; they don't owe the world anything. sometimes, that's a good thing, too. ]

[gorb]

( Is it fucked up that he laughs at that? )

I'm not so committed to my own misery these days. It hasn't led me anywhere good. Besides, who would provide proper nutrition if I slunk back into that? The candy wrapper graveyard I pick up every day would not bode well for anyone.

[shadowban]

if you prep the snacks for him, you can cut the sugar down a little. he'll know, and he'll be a little more annoying about it, but he'll let it slide.

he can't live on mochi and confectionery.

and don't negotiate.

[ geto-san probably knows all of this, has done and wrote the rulebook, but why not commiserate over it too? ]

[gorb]

( Unfortunately for Megumi there is absolutely negotiation. It's just that Geto has a specific skill-set that allows it. )

He's on the bento box roster. He mostly seems to allow it as long as I let him eat sweets after. So he won't die of malnutrition just yet.

I'll keep an eye. Between us we'll manage.

[shadowban]

worse comes to worst, we can always beat him up.

though he'll probably let you win if you meant it. he's weird like that. he never lets me win, but i think it's more because he knows i'll know he's letting me have it easy.

[ it's just as weird that megumi prefers it that way, that small degree of separation between himself as gojo's student and himself as gojo's ward. the little things, the attention that particular detail; it's killer. ]

[gorb]

So violent, Megumi.

But fine, if we must resort to violence then we might as well go all out. He can handle it. And it's for his own good.

[shadowban]

i used to try to jump sensei every chance i got. you should ask him about it sometime.

[ it was the quickest way megumi thought to train himself, because he always loses. there's a good reason why he was allowed to go on missions before he formally joined the school. ]

[gorb]

...

Is that what you find enriching?

[shadowban]

i like reading. i like animals.

i like to put people in their place when they think they can just go around bullying others. or i used to, anyway.

turns out the world's got too many bullies to deal with all the time.

[gorb]

Haha.

You're sadly right. But that doesn't mean you can't still pick your battles.

[shadowban]

did you, geto-san? not with sensei, but with everyone else.

[gorb]

I picked ones that couldn't be won. Isn't that how the story goes? But maybe I was a little like you then too. I just wanted the world to stop punching downwards. Just not in a way that was heroic.

[shadowban]

[ this is too familiar. ]

in another life, i might've turned out like you. isn't that scary? history repeating itself, entirely by accident.

[gorb]

I think we should be glad that you didn't. I don't think it would suit you.

[shadowban]

i wouldn't have lasted for very long.

yuji brought me back. he tried more than anyone else ever had. if i didn't have him, i don't know where i'd be.

[gorb]

I'm glad the two of you have each other. That's an important thing, you should protect it as long as you can.

[shadowban]

he's my best friend, and i love him.

...kind of like you and sensei.