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SOBA

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CHARACTER NAME

Geto Suguru

CIVILIAN NAME

Zaru Soba

TEAM

Brimstone

HOUSING NUMBER

003

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Comments

[shadowban]

i'll message him right now. gotta keep him out of our business.

[gorb]

Ha.

All right, that's very fair.

[shadowban]

[ minutes later ]

why is sensei being weird.

[gorb]

The true lifelong conundrum.

How weird?

[shadowban]

he's being nice about it.

[gorb]

Is he not allowed to be nice?

[shadowban]

you've met him. you're willingly engaging him in bed.

[gorb]

I have. I am.

Which means I know what I'm saying when I tell you that I think it's nice how hard he's trying now. He wants us to be happy.

[shadowban]

i know that. but that's between you and him, and he's extremely good at compartmentalising, so why is h

[ the only reason to bridge two separate parts of one's life is if the barriers will no longer matter. gojo taught him this from the beginning. ]

us, as you and him and me. not just you and him.

[gorb]

And everyone else he cares about, yes.

( Uh oh. )

[shadowban]

are you pregnant?

[gorb]

I did consider drinking a squid ramune earlier out of curiosity, but no.

( He wouldn't be the one pregnant anyway. )

[shadowban]

when i grow up i hope i won't be this ridiculous.

[ luckily! he dies young! ]

[gorb]

Ah, you better be. I want to tease you about it.

[shadowban]

hah. i'll be lucky if i make it to thirty, honestly.

infinity void is terrifying.

[gorb]

Do you imagine you'll be stuck in it any time soon?

[shadowban]

...stuck in infinity?

i'm confusion

[gorb]

Hang on, backtrack with me.

What's terrifying?

i got u!!!

[shadowban]

[ it strikes megumi suddenly that perhaps geto hasn't had to face the effects of infinity void or hollow purple, because sensei has never had to aim either at him at any point. ]

you know how he died, right?

[gorb]

( He was all but dead, and whatever else his mind has packed up nice and neatly never to think about again -. )

No.

Only that he did.

[shadowban]

at the time, sensei can only hit six infinite voids in a row before he has to replenish his cursed energy. anyone else, any other time, he wouldn't need to hit more than one.

i know this because i took on six hits for a chance to kill him.

[gorb]

( He has to take a breath.

Then several more.

Because of course it would have to be horrible enough, of course it would have to be personal enough. Satoru is strong but he flinches when his heart is involved. Geto feels misery well, an awful sympathy. For both of them. )

Does thinking about it so much help?

[shadowban]

every time i look in the mirror. every time i feel anything with this stupid body. every time i get a moment of peace to myself. there isn't a part of me that he didn't take over. i can't escape it.

it's not the kind of helplessness you can just stop thinking about. or maybe i'm not strong enough, because i can't.

[gorb]

No, it would be hard for anyone.

He didn't blame you. I know he can't remember it now, but before. He didn't hold you accountable at all.

[shadowban]

he shouldn't. i wish he wouldn't. i could've fought harder to get back, i could've tried to stop all of it from happening. i got careless and stupid and i thought i was owed one good thing, but that's not how the world works.

life is never fair. if it was, he'd be alive and not me.