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( No one mentioned him.

He wonders if that is better or worse. )

Thank you, I think? But I'll be careful now. I don't want to hurt anyone any more than I have. I've missed him for far too long to upset things again, and besides I'm very scared of his students.

( Maybe. )

Things will be fine.

geto-san. when you really think about it, the worst that you can do now is hurt our feelings. you'll be fine. please look out for yourself, too.

remember, we're not allowed to kill ourselves. we promised.

[ it's too fine a point, too blunt, but megumi hopes it gets his point across; they don't owe the world anything. sometimes, that's a good thing, too. ]

( Is it fucked up that he laughs at that? )

I'm not so committed to my own misery these days. It hasn't led me anywhere good. Besides, who would provide proper nutrition if I slunk back into that? The candy wrapper graveyard I pick up every day would not bode well for anyone.

if you prep the snacks for him, you can cut the sugar down a little. he'll know, and he'll be a little more annoying about it, but he'll let it slide.

he can't live on mochi and confectionery.

and don't negotiate.

[ geto-san probably knows all of this, has done and wrote the rulebook, but why not commiserate over it too? ]

( Unfortunately for Megumi there is absolutely negotiation. It's just that Geto has a specific skill-set that allows it. )

He's on the bento box roster. He mostly seems to allow it as long as I let him eat sweets after. So he won't die of malnutrition just yet.

I'll keep an eye. Between us we'll manage.

worse comes to worst, we can always beat him up.

though he'll probably let you win if you meant it. he's weird like that. he never lets me win, but i think it's more because he knows i'll know he's letting me have it easy.

[ it's just as weird that megumi prefers it that way, that small degree of separation between himself as gojo's student and himself as gojo's ward. the little things, the attention that particular detail; it's killer. ]

So violent, Megumi.

But fine, if we must resort to violence then we might as well go all out. He can handle it. And it's for his own good.

i used to try to jump sensei every chance i got. you should ask him about it sometime.

[ it was the quickest way megumi thought to train himself, because he always loses. there's a good reason why he was allowed to go on missions before he formally joined the school. ]

...

Is that what you find enriching?

i like reading. i like animals.

i like to put people in their place when they think they can just go around bullying others. or i used to, anyway.

turns out the world's got too many bullies to deal with all the time.

Haha.

You're sadly right. But that doesn't mean you can't still pick your battles.

did you, geto-san? not with sensei, but with everyone else.

I picked ones that couldn't be won. Isn't that how the story goes? But maybe I was a little like you then too. I just wanted the world to stop punching downwards. Just not in a way that was heroic.

[ this is too familiar. ]

in another life, i might've turned out like you. isn't that scary? history repeating itself, entirely by accident.

I think we should be glad that you didn't. I don't think it would suit you.

i wouldn't have lasted for very long.

yuji brought me back. he tried more than anyone else ever had. if i didn't have him, i don't know where i'd be.